Rememeber Then

Remember that feeling; the one you had when you were younger.  That little feeling that you kept inside and longed to share.  It was a great feeling, a full feeling, one you long to remember.  A feeling if you could save you would keep forever.  Before the pain, before the worry, brfore the panic, before the hate.  Do you remember it.  That feeling, that full feeling, you kept inside.  Do you remember her?  The smell of her hair.  The taste of her lips.  The secrets you shared.  The hopes you built.  The beauty you saw.  Remember the late night phone calls.  and the whispers in the dark.  The feeling of the time before pain shattered hope, before worry stifled genius, before hate hurt your heart.  Remember the feeling of her hand in yours.  The embraces.  The late night promises.  The way that it felt.  Or was it him and the worry.  When will they know?  Can they tell?  When will they find out?  What will they say?   The fear and worry and insecurity you felt.  No matter the time, no matter who it was whether it was a he or a she.  Do you remember?  Despite the fear and anger.  Despite the pain and hate.  Instead of the fear and loathing.  Do you rememeber?  I think you can because that was love.  Love the lifechanger, love the impassioned, love the truth.  Well that is still you.   You are still there.  Deep inside when you weave in the moments before wakefulness and sleep it is still there.  You can still feel it.  It is still you.  Dont you remeber and don't you want to go back to that time.  Don't you want to harness that feelin that one you held close.  Well you can no matter your age, race, us bound or foreign.  Loving right now and strong and full or broken and angry and full of hate.  All of  the bad you were, it matters  no longer, because inside in that sacred secret unforgotten place.  The place you can  remember and never gave up on and have never forgotten you are still there.  You have not forgotten.  You are still there.  You are love and you are still there and you shine with a brilliance the whole world can see.  You are the reason fulfilled through hope and beleif.  You are the words you log to speak and you do and when you do they are your truth, your words, your honesty, your hope.  So feel your love not as you are told or made to do or even asked but as you long to do.  Let your love light shine and your emotiions inspire words and let them be the conciousness you choose to embrace.   Love not for you not for me but for us with hope that tomorrow as you arise and the sunlight inspires, living your love, no matter the doubt, no matter the pain, no matter the worry, so that in truth you receive that thing you remember and in the end when it matters and all is done fhat will make you happy and you deserve to feel that feeling without pain or doubt or insecurity at all.