Oh my god!!!  The utter absurdity of the world.  Through sexual expectation and a headful of pain light is found in honest connection and true understanding.  Like the gathering of energy before the universes expansion true hope is found.  Oh my god, the absurdity yet through my factory I have found honest calm and true reason.  The path less travelled and past adventure.  The heart is easily seen when all pretension has gone the way of the dodo.  True self is unbreakable.  It may be mired at times in confusion but caring cleanses the soul and the way of it in the soul of another.  Despite your pain and the pain you proffer I do wish you safety.  It is okay.  I dream too.  There is more to you than you know.  Search for it and you will find it.  In calm look deep inside.  Let go of your anger.  Forgive.  Let go.  Wait, see what arises.  At first it will be a head full of rushed memory but be calm.  Slowly life will arise.  As you have dreams of others so to will you have dreams of yourself.  That is your life, that which fills your belly. It is only temporary.  Your new life is real.  Have faith in it. You will achieve joy.  I have faith in you.